“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2
Sorry, my friends for being away for so long, school gets too busy to write a public display of devotion the way I used to, and forcing it in made it feel like a chore to me rather than something I loved doing. We’ve got a small time window before chaos starts again, so I’m taking it.
Lately, I’ve had the topic of integrity weighing heavily on my heart. In the past couple of months I’ve been faced with situations where there was a clear choice in front of me: God’s way and my way. The funny thing about it is that whenever we choose our way we think we’re happy but that feeling always has a tiny hint of guilt behind it. We don’t want to choose God’s way; something about our human nature fights against it. We want to be pleased all the time so when we adapt the “who cares” attitude we spiral downwards like a snowball becoming an avalanche, making choice after choice according to our own will. I know I’m not the only one who has experienced this. Either you’re going through it now or have gone through it before. Here’s the thing though, choosing God’s way feels a million times better. The happiness that we strive for has a more overall lasting feeling than the temporary joy we experience from our own will. Choosing to live on the “yolo” side of life may be fun but living on Yahweh’s side of life is definitely better.
The problem is that we feel like we have to live like the world. They tell us “it’s stupid being a virgin,” “alcohol will make you forget your worries,” “cursing up a storm is the only way to release your frustrations”, and a million other things more; but what makes you set apart as a Christian if you look and act just like everyone else? Romans 12:2 says “DO NOT conform any longer to the pattern of this world…” and yet we find ourselves doing the same things as everyone else, and making the same bad choices. Francesca Battistelli sings, “It’s your life, watcha gonna do? The World is watching you. Every day the choices you make, say what you are and who your heart beats for.” Sometimes when you’re choosing your will, it’s not your will at all but the world’s will. Choosing God’s will means sometimes being mocked, and it means denying that urge inside of you. God tells us, “If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.” John 15:19
When you make a conscious choice for God way alone, soon enough His will becomes your will; you do things because you know He would be please and you realize that you don’t want to go back. God’s will is truly good, pleasing, and perfect, but for you to experience it you have to deny yourself. Are you willing to take the chance? After all, like Switchfoot says, “It’s your life. Are you who you want to be?” But better yet, are you who God wants you to be?